Sargasm

What do you think? https://pin.it/dwotf3vukcwpj2

10 days on HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy).

My voice is getting deeper and it's noticeable to me. I am pitchy at times, but I know that's normal.

My follow-up appointment with the Endo is supposed to happen in January. I'm supposed to get a blood draw for fasting blood work a week before I go in.

I hope to hear about scheduling top surgery by early November. I'm just so ready to get it done.

I know, impatient me. I've only been wanting to get this done since I realized that being trans gender is a real thing in 2009, though I didn't have insurance to do anything until 2015.

I got a total hysterectomy in November of 2015. I also started to find information regarding other parts of transitioning, but didn't find anything until June of 2016.

Things got derailed when Tom was diagnosed with esophageal cancer in August 2016, then he was told it was terminal 2 weeks later. He passed away in March of 2017, 7 months after diagnosis.

I tried to continue looking for information, looking for a gender therapist, but no luck. I decided to devote most of my energy to spending time with Tom, who passed away on 11 March 2017.

After a year of mourning, I slipped and fell in my kitchen and hit my head on something, giving me a concussion.

Before the fall I had made an appointment with my PCP to get the ball rolling for my medical transition. I'd already been wearing men's casual clothes for many years, including a chest binder since 2015.

HRT

16.10.18

I took my first full dose of T this morning. I realized that I forgot to discard the amount that came out of the pump when I was priming the pump. So yesterday's dose was a little less than a full dose.

I'm still learning. <shrug>

~ Drew

College

College is on hold for now because I'm still recovering from the concussion and dealing with other stuff.

Me, 15 Oct 2018

Finally started HRT, Androgel, 12.5 mg on each shoulder.

Consult w/Plastic Surgeon

I had a consult appt with a plastic surgeon about top surgery on 20 Sept 2018. He told me that at that time he's booked out 4 weeks and it could take 2 weeks to get approved for surgery, so I wait until I hear back.

Edited to add I finally had top surgery on 2 October 2019

Joke Nic told me...

Jesus told John, come forth and receive eternal life. But he finished 5th and won a free toaster.

18 months

Today marks 18 months since the love of my life, Thomas Csengeto, lost his battle against cancer. My life has such a huge hole in it since his death.

Though without him I wouldn't have taken the steps toward my medical transition towards manhood. In 9 days I have a confirmation appointment with a plastic surgeon about getting a bi-lateral double mastectomy, aka top surgery. I will be seeing the endocrinologist again in October, hopefully I'll start testosterone shortly after that.

I don't know why this didn't post on 11.Sept.2018, but it did post on 15.Oct.2018, the day I started HRT.

I have no idea when I'll be getting top surgery, but at least I'm finally getting started on the hormones.

I have finally picked a name - Wendrew Devin Gach, and I'll either go by Drew or Jesse for nicknames.

~Wendrew

After talking with my dad 8/2018 I learned why Jesse is a not such a good name choice, so Drew it is.

Moving along... New updates 30 August 2018

I have an appointment with my PCP on 5/5/2018 I'll be asking her for a referral for a bi-lateral double mastectomy (aka top surgery for trans*dudes). This referral will got to my insurance and they will get me hooked up with a plastic surgeon who does this kind of surgery... I think. I found this info when I googled how my insurance handles this matter.

• 27/8/2018 - 2/9/2018
• Now for a recap from this weeks adventures :
• Had a DEXA scan that shows bone density on 28/Aug/2018. This was ordered by the endocrinologist, who I will see again on 10/10/2018, I will also be getting a new MRI, and see the neuro-surgeon in Seattle on this day
• 
  
• Had a  speech therapy appointment on 29/8/2018 and I will have more to follow weekly over he next 2 months.
• I have a follow-up appointment with the psychiatrist  on 31/10/2018

Stormy's Beach house(2009)

Here we are in my newest blog page. This is just randomness from me. I thought I'd created such a blog in the past, but I can't find it.

Once upon a time I had a random web forum called Stormy's Beach House. It was a fun place for friends to gather and talk about all sorts of things. I was a single mom living on the north coast of Oregon with my two older sons... obviously this happened more than 10 years ago. I miss Oregon, I miss my "Beach House".

Tonight's conversation with my dad...

I told my dad that as part of my transition, I wanted a bilateral mastectomy. He asked me why I wanted my breasts removed, only for him talk about how much he loved breasts on women.

If I identify on the masculine spectrum, I'm not a woman and I don't want my father talking about loving breasts as if he'd take it personally if I had mine removed.

My body, MY life. My transition is NOT about my parents, it's about making things right for me.

Endocrinologist

I saw the endocrinologist today. I need to get labs done, a sleep study and I don't remember if I need anything else done... oh yeah, need a dexa scan. I hope to start testosterone within the next 2 months... hopefully I'll start by 26 Sept.

I called the insurance person about a bilateral mastectomy, I hope I hear from her tomorrow. I'm so ready for the breasts to be gone.

Looking back.,

For as long as I can remember I've always thought I was a boy. My mom called me a tomboy, so I just went along with that until I realized that it could be something else, I could be transgender.

The year of my 40th birthday, Chaz Bono came out publicly as being transgender and that's when all the puzzle pieces fell into place.

Chaz is 22 days older than me, I remember seeing him on his parent's TV show on TV.

Psychiatrist

I finally have an appointment with a psychiatrist on 1 August 2018. Next stop is getting an appointment with an endocrinologist so I can get started on HRT. I'm about to start the road to becoming the true me.

Edited on 31 July 2018...

My appointment with the psychiatrist is tomorrow, the appointment with the Endocrinologist is on 6 August 2018. I also have an appointment with my psychologist on 20 August 2018.

Yay, things are moving forward at a brisk pace for now.

Hopefully I'll be starting hormones soon. I'll also be wanting info about changing my gender marker and updating whatever needs to be updated... I also want to know about top surgery. I had the hysterectomy in 2015.

I'm nervous and giddy at the same time. I better write stuff down in my little note pad so I won't forget them while talking with the doctor.

Concussion

I fell in the kitchen on Wednesday, resulting in a concussion w/amnesia.

Today is Saturday 26 May 2018. I don't have strong memories of things that happened this week or the previous week.

I know that Brandon had emergency surgery for a ruptured appendix in April. 4/20 stands out strongly, but I'm not sure on the specifics. Was it the day the appendix ruptured or something else somewhat related.

I also started online classes in early May so I could work towards my Bachelor's in Accounting that got put on hold thanks to the MS dx and other things in 1998.

I'm currently having rather lucid memories about my MS dx flooding back to my mind while I wait for Mary to pick me up and take me home.

I'm just writing them down in my blog so I'll have them available so I can contact a Social Security lawyer about reasons I think I should qualify for SSDI.

College 2018-?

I found out what my first 2 classes are: marketing and human relations. I start on May 7th.

College 2018

I'm signed up to go back to school to earn my bachelor's in Accounting. Classes start on 7 May 2018.

I'll be attending online classes at Southern New Hampshire University.

Mexican Mojito

1 oz lime juice
1 oz simple syrup
4 mint leaves
2 oz tequila
3 strawberries
Lime wheels for garnish
Clubsoda

My weight loss since Thomas died

18 Feb 2018

I have lost some weight...

I started out wearing mens size 36 jeans and now I'm wearing Tom's size 32 jeans. Currently the equivalent to a womens size 10.

The last time I weighed myself, my scale said 154. Maybe I should pick up a pair of mens size 30 jeans.

The last time I was in this weight range was when I was living in Colorado and still able to do a lot of walking.

Journey into better eating

In the fall of 2017 I decided to try the Ketogenic diet/lifestyle.

Since Thomas' death on 11 March 2017 my weight blossomed up to about 183 lbs at my heaviest and I didn't like how that made me feel. My friend Pixie had been doing the Ketogenic diet, plus exercise and had great results, dropping more than 100#. So I thought I'd see what would happen if I tried the diet, without the exercise. I lost 20# between Thanksgiving and Christmas. I've lost a bit more, but I don't have the numbers at the moment. I'll post them when I have them.

~Jendie aka Jesse